Its been 15 weeks today

15 weeks (105 days) that my file has been in Ethiopia today. 15 weeks ago I breathed a huge sigh of relief that finally the wait for my baby could begin. I am 15 weeks paper pregnant. If one were physically pregnant this would be the point where I would say ahh past the first trimester, now I can relax a little more knowing the dangerous period is over. I feel sort of the same way at this point in the adoption journey. I know by this point my file is in the hands of the local gov officials...hopefully already done with my file, approved my request to adopt and hopefully by now "H" is looking for my child to be matched with me. I decided I will count down in weeks...because 15 weeks sounds better than 3 1/2 months That extra week counts for a lot LOL LOL.
I was at a Mary Kay party when someone asked if I had kids yet...I said nope not yet, but I have one on the way from Ethiopia. She gave me a confused look....so I chuckled and explained further. Its all very exciting being able to tell people that I am expecting from Ethiopia. I got my shirt ordered from Lisa, so soon I will be able to wear it. I can't wait to see the shirts..How exciting.
So yesterday I got a great buy at Sears. I got two crib dust ruffles...yes I know how many dust ruffles does one need...believe me I have 4 now...I think that is enough :) LOL. Anyways at sears I got this green checkered dust ruffle with a thick blue fleece trim (about 2.5 inches wide)...with animals, leaves, bugs embroidered in the fleece. It was reg 49.99 (just for the dust ruffle...isn't that ridiculous) Picture attached above!!! But I got it for 14.99 (even that price I had to swallow hard). And the 2nd dust ruffle...plain green with a blue and green vertical line down the middle (in a pleat) for 2.49 (that was a great buy)!

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Is anyone else feeling this way

I am trying so hard to feel happy and excited for those receiving their referrals from kids Link in such a short time period (I am talking weeks not months)...but I having sort of a hard time with it. It seems like such a short time compared to the 9-11 months that has been predicted for CAFAC wait..and yet I am soo happy with the agency and am committed to the agency. I would never change agencies as they are an agency that has been doing it for so many years, and Kids Link has yet to actually have anyone travel to get their child. (not to mention the enormous expense involved in changing) But geezz I am feeling a little bit frustrated by it all. I am just gritting my teeth to see yet another referral in under a month for Kids Link. I am Jealous..I can admit it...I don't wish bad or feel anger towards the parents...but why would one agency get referrals so quick and the other have such a long wait. It doesn't seem fair. But ahhh that is it Life is not always fair and I am in this for the long haul. If I messed with fate.....well I know my child is chosen for me and it will all happen when it is suppose to be.
But gosh darn it, its really frustrating.

Louise

Wow I have been really slack on updating this thing....sorry

Okay so its been a while since I posted. I have been in a new position in the Neonatal Unit for almost a month now so I have been kept very busy with reading, learning and doing all kinds of things that are certainly out of my comfort zone. But I am loving every minute of it...so that is a bonus. I think it is such a gift if you have a job or a career that you absolutely love.

On the adoption front...my file landed in Ethiopia 3 months ago...so its still a bit of a wait..but one I am comitted to and will try not to fret to much over how long I am waiting...yeah right I know. But I will try. The last three months seem to have gone by so quickly..so I am hoping the next couple continue to fly by as well.

I had what was hopefully my last Thanksgiving without my child home. It was so nice to think that this time next year I will most likely be home with my little one really truely being thankful for all that the future holds and for all the blessings in the past few years I have received.

Its starting all to feel very real yet so far away. Yesterday I was in Toys R Us and it is so neat to know that in a few months I will have to be registering for all these things I keep looking at and to know someday soon I will have a little one to put into that crib, that stroller. It's all very exciting!